
History
My journey to EFT began somewhere around the time of my undergraduate years at Hampshire College, an experimental school that boasted no grades and very little structure. Coming from a somewhat sketchy public school background, I quickly found I'd have to develop some new learning strategies if I was going to someday make it to graduation. In this new environment I had almost unlimited freedom to do whatever I wanted. The problem was, I had absolutely no skills to handle this! Or I felt I didn't anyway. If I had to guess now, I'd say I had some pretty damaged self-esteem at this point. Growing up gay, closeted and generally miserable - I was now in a place where I felt could really be myself, but I really didn't know how. Negative feelings about myself drove my behavior in some very unfortunate ways at this point and over time, grew into some serious issues indeed.
Before I could be successful at this school - learn how to propose projects, defend my ideas and see them through to completion - I had to discover just what my own learning process looked like. Thankfully I had a real sense of bravado and a 'can-do' attitude that functioned in spite of my feelings to the contrary. Somehow, I always managed to 'put myself out there' and 'muscle through' life in some astonishing ways. Unfortunately, I would also learn that 'muscling through' isn't always the most congruent or healthy way of acheiving a goal.
When things got really tough, I had the sense to drop out of school for a while and put some of what I was learning to work in the real world. Right out of the gate, I found myself hired to develop curriculum as a veteran teacher for the Exploration Summer Programs at Wellesley College. I loved working with kids and had a real knack for relating to them. While I experienced this one (rated 'G') aspect of myself during my summer months, I also pursued the life of a performing artist in San Francisco, really immersing myself in the cross-gender culture of San Francisco in the early nineties. Unfortunately, it seemed like I would do or be almost anything to conceal the deeply troubling feelings I still carried. Of course I was deeply dissatisfied, but couldn't put my finger on why I was so unhappy.
When I finally returned to Hampshire from my whirlwind tour and graduated from school, my experiences and diverse skill set led me to follow an even more winding path to New York City. There I was more comfortable working 'behind the scenes' with artists, slinging coffee and keeping a low profile. I also put myself through a tumult of seemingly endless tragic personal events - which I now know were directly related to my earlier need to express old feelings of disempowerment and helplessness. Somehow, though, I would find a way of forge on, this time by creating a career as a learning specialist/technology instructor - an adventure that lasted for over 7 years. Even in the face of all my challenges, I still felt I needed to teach my learning process to others...
In early 2005 I was carrying a ton of stress around physically - it would seem that my low self-esteem had finally caught up with me. Or maybe I was ready to face it? I was constantly sick, always on antibiotics, and had deeply unsatisfying personal patterns and relationships. I learned of EFT almost casually, when I contacted a hypnotherapist I found on the internet. I was completely shocked when in about 5 minutes of using EFT, several years of seemingly unrelated carpal tunnel pain literally melted away before my eyes!
I could not believe that not only could EFT erase physical challenges, but it appeared to do so as it removed the sting from deeper, more troubling emotional issues that rose to the surface during treatment. Had I actually found a cure for the many terrible feelings I had been carrying around for so long? During this process, I experienced the clear connection between my feelings and my physical symptoms, and the power to do something about it! I also began to experience the even clearer connection between my feelings and their role in creating my life challenges. Talk about technology! Well, my geek within kicked-in right then - and after months of study and self-exploration, what had begun as a personal journey, soon opened to friends, family, peers and clients.
These days, I delight in facilitating that previously dreaded sense of unlimited freedom - the very state that scared me so much when I was younger. As an experienced EFT instructor and ordained minister, I'm grateful to nurture a growing practice - continuing to deepen my own experience while providing EFT solutions to people from all walks of life. Athletes, actors, psychologists, entrepreneurs, singers, bank tellers, students - all kinds of people come to me because they feel intuitively that troubling emotional issues or painful physical challenges don't have to affect them for the rest of their lives. Or they've simply "tried everything" and are literally at their wits end - as I was!
I look forward to assisting you to painlessly burn through anything that may be in your way.
Please feel free to contact me if you have any questions.
peace,
Jade Barbee
info@emotionalengine.com
646.242.7515
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